Let us go out this evening for pleasure. The night is still young.

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im still learning how to be normal, so please be patient <3you are going to see bright colorful anime aimed at 10 year old girls and then scary(?) goths or whatever mere moments later here. you must accept this mood whiplash into your life.if youre super concerned with media being "unproblematic" youre not going to like me, but if you go around calling yourself an anti-anti and whatnot im not going to like youi really do not like netflixvania. (if i follow you, plz tag it if you insist on enjoying it)please do remind me to tag things if i forget. my curiouscat exists!this account is nsfw every now and thenif youre under 17, please don't follow me


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chrishawn
20 years old
he/him or xe/xem (tme)
black + in the USA


general likes
shoujo manga, video games, anthropology, history, fashion, art, music, long-haired bishounen, romantic stuff
animanga
tokimeki tonight, kamisama kiss, the poe clan, the rose of versailles, yotsuba&!, cardcaptor sakura, ojamajo doremi, revolutionary girl utena, from far away, inuyasha, vampire hunter d: bloodlust, witch hat atelier, kageki shoujo
games
super mario, style savvy, symphony of the night, super castlevania iv, ocarina of time, majora's mask, a link to the past, splatoon, the house in fata morgana, bloodstained, three houses, genealogy of the holy war
music
buck-tick, my chemical romance, aaliyah, other misc rock + r&b
fave charas
felix/fefe (fe), shannan/shanaynay/shay (fe), alucard/cardiepoo (cv), goemon/gummy (lupin iii), jeritza/itzie (fe), (i am so sorry about all the fire emblem), +

other fave charas
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libra/weebra (fe)
sesshomaru/sesshy (inuyasha)
oscar (rov)
ranze (tokimeki tonight)
gakupo/gakuchan/po (vocaloid)
link (oot/mm/alttp)
hana (doremi)
sephiroth/sephy (ffvii)
yuri (tales)
simon (cv)
maria (cv)
nahyuta (aa)
rosie (ac)
genji/gengen (ac)
vil (twst)
lady maria (bloodborne)
jakurai (hypmic)
joseph (idv)
an innumerable amount of cool anime pretty boys (various media)

(italics = i dont play/watch/read where theyre from but i really really enjoy looking at them)

ROUAGE - Jesus Phobia (09/25/20)

ROUAGE - Jesus Phobia
English Translation + Lyrics

"I hope that tomorrow I don't wake up..."
Every night I kept on repeating this prayer.
The morning laughed...
If eventually everyone will disappear like bubbles...

It was sort of warm
These arms have never enveloped someone
I sort of hated You
This place is too, too far from there

Wingless wing
While holding this wish and this heart
It's like a "Jesus phobia"
I open my hand
Wingless wing
The sadder I am the more vast the sky is
Wingless wing... My wingless wing
won't reach...

Like a toy that's sick of playing,
reality is an obscured scene
"Smile one more time..." Since's that's become easy,
Stay here, stay by me
Always continue to destroy me

It's funny, isn't it? It's full of gaps
Who is that? It doesn't look like your face
I sort of hated You
This place is too, too far from the sky

Wingless wing
When I can feel the wind throughout my whole body
It's like a "Jesus phobia"
I'll open my hand
Wingless wing
Since when have my feathers been torn apart?
WIngless wing... My wingless wing
"Guide me..."

I can't make even You love me, it seems
"Can you hear me?"
... Jesus? ...

"I hope that tomorrow I don't wake up..."
If everyone will eventually disappear like bubbles

(note: "you" with a capital Y = God. The speaker hated God a little. The "you" that's lowercase is someone else.
Also, the concert performance linked has slightly different lyrics from what's here (it's missing things) but it's more interesting to look at a concert than a slideshow, no? If you want the plain 'ol song with no adjustments, go here.)

ashita me ga samemasen you ni
furi kaesu mainichi ni inori tsudzuketa yoru wo
asa ga waratta
itsuka min'na awa no you ni kiete shimaeba

sukoshi dake atakakatta you
kono ude ni dare wo tsutsumu koto mo nai
sukoshi dake anata wo nikunda
koko kara wa soko wa totemo toosugite

wingless wing
kono negai wo kokoro wo kakaete
it's like a jesus phobia
kono te wo hirogete
wingless wing
kanashii hodo sora wa hirokute
wingless wing... my wingless wing
todokanai

asobi akita omocha no you ni
shinjitsu wa boyaketa keshiki
mou ichido waratte you raku ni naru kara
koko ni ite soba ni ite
itsumo boku wo kowashi tsudzukete

okashii ne sukima darake
dare darou kimi no kao janai mitai
sukoshi dake anata wo nikunda
koko kara wa sora wa totemo toosugite

wingless wing
karada juu kaze wo kanjitara
it's like a jesus phobia
kono te wo hirogete
wingless wing
itsu kara hane wo chigireta no
wingless wing... my wingless wing
michibiite

anata ni sae aisenai darou
boku ga kikoemasu ka
... jesus? ...

ashita me ga samemasen you ni
itsuka min'na awa no you ni kiete shimaeba

「明日、目が覚めませんように…」
繰り返す毎日に祈り続けた夜を
朝が笑った…
いつか みんな泡の様に消えてしまえば

少しだけ 温かかったよ
この腕に 誰を包むこともない
少しだけ"神様(あなた)"を憎んだ
ここからは そこはとても遠すぎて

Wingless wing
この願いを 心を抱えて
It's like a "Jesus phobia"
この手をひろげて
Wingless wing
悲しいほど 空は広くて
Wingless wing… My wingless wing
届かない…

遊び飽きた玩具の様に
真実はぼやけた景色
「もう一度 笑ってよ…」 楽になるから
ここにいて そばにいて
いつも僕を壊し続けて

おかしいね 隙間だらけ
誰だろう キミの顔じゃないみたい
少しだけ"神様(あなた)"を憎んだ
ここからは 空はとても遠すぎて

Wingless wing
身体中 風を感じたら
It's like a "Jesus phobia"
この手をひろげて
Wingless wing
いつから羽をちぎれたの?
Wingless wing… My wingless wing
「導いて…」

"神様(あなた)にさえ愛せないだろう
「僕が聞こえますか?」
…Jesus?…

「明日、目が覚めませんように…」
いつか みんな泡の様に消えてしまえば

ROUAGE - Shinkirou (Mirage)
English Translation + Lyrics

Since I don't have a thing
I'm looking for something

Since I can't see a thing
I want to see something

Unable to undress,
I slip through the times

The inside of the gaps of my fingers were precious
After the valuable time

There are people who can't become beautiful

The mirror reflected my face, which was tired of smiling

To tie
From that place, while no longer standing, you

With your wet finger,
you stack colors onto me (thirsty)

Close your... when you fall into a dream
Frenzied slippery dizziness

Entrust your heart in their care
and it's like you didn't lose anything

Since I can't remember
I'm looking for the words

I covered up the gaps
In the center of my lost body and spirit

There are people who can't become beautiful

The sound of scattered footsteps echo
Covered in colors in the night

Close your... if you fall into a dream
Frenzied slippery dizziness

Entrust your heart to their care
and it's like you don't lose anything
it's like you don't lose anything

Close your... when you fall into a dream
Frenzied slippery dizziness

Entrust your heart to their care
and it's like you aren't losing anything

Close your... when you slip into a dream
Frenzied trembling mirage

Gently close your eyes and
it's like you don't lose anything

Close your... when you slip into a dream
It's a fragile trembling mirage

Close your eyes
and my ache

At the end of a long dream
it's like you don't lose anything

nani hitotsu nai kara
nani ka wo sagashite

nani mo mienai kara
nani ka wo mitakute

nuge dasenai mama de
surinuketeku toki tachi

yubi no sukima ni wa itoshisugita
taisetsu na shunkan no ato ni

kirei ni narenai
mono ga aru

warai tsukareta kagami ni utsuru
boku no kao ga

tsunagi tometeru
kimi wa soko de tachi tomatta mama

usunda yubisaki de
kawaita boku ni iro wo kasanete

close your yume ni ochitara
memagurushiku suberu memai ni
kokoro goto azukete
nani mo nakusanai you ni

omoidasenai kara
kotoba wo sagashite

shukima no umeteita haguresou na
karada to kokoro no tochuu

kirei ni narenai
mono ga aru

barabara no ashi oto ga hibiku
yoru ni iro wo kasanete

close your yume ni ochitara
memagurushiku suberu memai ni

kokoro goto azukete
nani mo nakusanai you ni
nani mo nakusanai you ni

close your yume ni ochitara
memagurushiku suberu memai ni

kokoro goto azukete
nani mo nakusanai you ni

close your yume ni ochitara
memagurushiku yureru shinkirou

sotto me wo tojite
nani mo nakusanai you ni

close your yume ni ochitara
kowaresou ni yureru shinkirou

close your eyes
and my ache

nagai yume no owari ni
nani mo nakusanai you ni

何ひとつ ないから
何かを探して

何も見えないから
何かを見たくて

ぬげだせないままで
すりぬけてく 「時間」 達

指の隙間には 愛しすぎた
大切な 「時」 の後に

奇麗になれない
ものがある

笑い疲れた 鏡に映る
僕の顔が

繋ぎとめてる
きみはそこで 立ち止まったまま

潤んだ指先で
渇いた僕に 色を重ねて

Close your… 夢におちたら
めまぐるしく すべる めまいに

ココロごと預けて
何も失くさないように

想い出せないから
言葉を探して

隙間を埋めていた はぐれそうな
身体とココロの途中

奇麗になれない
ものがある

ばらばらの 足音が響く
夜に色を重ねて

Close your… 夢におちたら
めまぐるしく すべる めまいに

ココロごと預けて
何も失くさないように
何も失くさないように

Close your… 夢におちたら
めまぐるしく すべる めまいに

ココロごと預けて
何も失くさないように

Close your… 夢におちたら
めまぐるしく ゆれる蜃気楼

そっと目を閉じて
何も失くさないように

Close your… 夢におちたら
壊れそうに ゆれる蜃気楼

Close your eyes
and my ache

永い夢の終わりに
何も失くさないように